Sparrow Confesses… in a list she wrote on a note pad she was given for Christmas

Today I failed at:

Smiling. Particularly smiling at strangers and brightening their day – I can’t seem to get it right and they stared at me like I’m crazy.

My diet. The food I chose was wrong. Even the coffee I ordered.

My clothes. I can’t seem to get the shoe/sock combination right.

Eating.  I must practice chewing without gurning  in front of a mirror.

My name. I can’t live up to my name. People seem to expect so much of me because of it. I can’t even say it out loud. I had to whisper it to the barista at Starbucks.

Not being jealous. I am jealous of everyone who is more successful. Which is everyone. I am failure and because of that I am jealous and I failed to control my jealousy.

Social media. No one liked my posts. Not a single like for all 44 posts. In the whole day.

Waiting. I failed at waiting for something to happen. I’m impatient for my real life to begin. 

Being alone. I failed at being happy alone.

Tomorrow I will be better. I just have to try not to let it upset me.

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